Something else

Woo! Okay so I was going to write this blog entry about the whole over parenting, Time's take on it, my take on it, and the hidden problem of under parenting, but really? REALLY? I just don't feel like it. So instead I am just going to write about whatever comes to mind.

First of all! My mom gave me a 100 dollar gift card to B&N which is going to comic books and theory. Then I promised myself I get a $150 from my christmas bonus to spend on comic books and other things. So ultimatly I am going to have lots and lots of stuff to read. I'm going to get a lot of really weird stuff, preorder things that haven't come out yet, and promethia which is something I'm really excited about. I don't own enough stuff by Alan Moore and someday soon that will change. Also I am going to get more hellboy. Hellboy is such a retardedly awesome series.

Next I am eagerly awaiting for the next V:TES expansion to come out. Once I get the starters from that I'll have enough suitable decks together that I can get people to start playing it with me again. I really really like V:TES and I know that once everyone else gets the actual game mechanics down they will to. I just need to make sure that there are no Stealth Bleed decks, and that everyone has an idea of how to use their decks, then it will go much better. Its strange, it really is an amazingly complex game when you start taking everything into effect. Right now I have 3 solid decks, 2 amazing stealth bleed deck, 1 more deck that will be amazing when I buy another starter, and a project deck. So with the help of the next expansion we will be set. Then we will try that shit again.

Arcane Legions! Well that went awesomely well. I am going to try and get with James latter and when we meet with Tyson over the break we can play some more. Next time we are definatly using those victory point places. I think the game works much better with those. Also I am bringing a tape measure to make sure we have an appropratly sized table. Once we get a few games like that under our belts then we can start messing around with senarios. THAT is when the game is going to get really fun. I'm hoping that the Hobby Centeral place will get more stuff in soon. I want to get Egyptian boosters from there, and James really wants to finnish his army. However, if they drag their feet for to long then back to the internet I go. Oddly enough this is one of the few things that isn't just cheaper to buy online.

SLA! SLA Industries stuff is going well. Pretty soon we'll be able to play. Before we do I want to rewrite the stress rules a bit, and then we will use the one shots to balance them out. The stress system is a truely brilliant way of simulating how stressful of a world SLA industries is, and I really want to use it, without all the idiotic book keeping that the actual system imposes. I think I got it though. I also want to roll out someone who I think is the coolest god damned villian ever. I've come up with some pretty impressive people over the years, but cuntface? Oh yeah he is definatly going to be a winner, I can tell. I'm kinda amazed I didn't come up with it sooner.

This whole week has been nothing but irreparable disruptions. So hopefully next week I'll be able to get back to work on the things that matter to me. Like the post modern pornography project, and SLA. Okay well that's me signing off now.

I like lists

Lists!

I remeber in sport's night Dan I think said, "What is it with women and lists, a woman is never so happy when they are making a list" I like making lists sometimes. It helps me focus on the things I want to be doing. Right now I am drawing my novel to a close. I'm excited, and as I know I've said twice now there will be an extended...you know what list starts now.

Things I feel like doing:

Blog topics:

1) Part two of the worker thing I don't even remeber what part two was going to be about. That's okay though I'll figgure it out when I read the post. OH yeah its from the actual workers perspective and working up, instead of the all our bosses are dicks and lack of noblese obliage.

2) The fed thing. In fact as soon as I do my novel blog, I am doing that one. Actually, I might do it first. The fed thing really bothers me. Fed suicide thing specifically

3) In the current issue of time there is an article about over parenting. Granted its written by Nacy Gibbs and she is retarded. But I am sure there is going to be a topic in there somewhere.


Video Games:

1) I wanna play more Dungeon Fighters. That game is awesome

2) I need to figgure out what I am going to be doing about city of heros. Right now, I don't play it enough to justify the cost and I am not sure I am going to be any time soon. Once going Rouge comes out I am still not sure if I am going to be. So if I am still not playing regularly by the end of the month then buh bye.

3) I want to play through Balder's Gate. I spontaneously downloaded it last night and I think I want to do it. I might end up playing planscape torment though. It came on the same torrent and it will run easily on the baby laptop.

Games:

Arcane Legions!: Yeah mother fucker demoing that game has been an epic success!. So I need to get an egyptian army together and prepare myself for laying the epic smack down on people that they so rightfully deserve.

VTES: I have 2 decks where I want them, and once people learn to play I have 4 decks that will be just fine. I have one deck that will be amazing someday just because the concept is so damn cool. Assemites black hand beatdown deck. In Febuary a new big expansion comes out so I'll be getting the starters from that. That should make up for the dude torredor starter. After that I think we'll be good to go and I'll try it again.

Big Projects:

Post Modern Pornography Project: I think I am going to wait until January before I start working on it proper. Start it in January maybe wrap it up in time for valentines day. That would be pretty cool. Last year I wrote Sasha some zombie porn, and the time before that I made her 24 or so cards, so doing something geeky in the opposite direction might be nice. I don't want it to be just for her though, this is for everyone. I dunno I'll figgure it out. I need to do some seriouse reading before I'll be ready. Two chapters from Lacan (shudder), a good chunck of 1000 Plateaus, Precession of the Simulacrum, and maybe some other stuff. I figgure I'll start boning up on my reading now, so I can get lots of theoretical ideas in my head before I watch the porn proper. There will be a HILARIOUSE where I watch thread when that happens I a garentee.

RPGS: Since Sasha/Mike visitation is terminated for the near visable future (fuck I am so MAD about that you don't understand) I guess I should start getting back into the whole roleplaying thing. I'm going to start gathering up some sla industries one shots. I have one half written from October here on baby laptop. So I'll get like 5 or so whipped up and run them whenever. If it turns into a weekly thing so be it.

I kinda want to do the evil D&D thing a few more times. I am excited by it generally and it is something I've wanted to do for awhile now. I think it could be AMAZINGLY fun, but I would really have to delve into the rules and get solid on a lot of stuff. There is a huge difference between running it and playing it. I dunno.

Also paranoia is always one of those things that everyone wants to play now.

Alright back to the grind house for me!

Not My Novel, Also Not What I am Supposed to be Writting

Well so recently I've discovered that there is something wrong inside of me. Mentally/spititually not physically. After trying out the most obviouse and easy answer I realized that it is something bigger than that. Well fuck. I should be trying to figgure out what it is. But I only have 45 minuts before I need to go to work so I'll do it when I have a little more time. I'm not depressed, and I am generally in a really good mood. But it is something that is kinda causing me to go to ground, hence the lack of updates here. Yeah you would think it would be the fucking novel that slows me down. Nope!

So the other day out of curiosity I began going over it trying to figgure out what I would need to do to make it a real book. After poking around I realize that the answer is a-fucking-lot. First of all I tend to write a scene a day. So as a result each scene in the book averages 2000 words and is three pages long. This leads to a highly unatural reading experience. This is a reult of both not wanting to stop writting in the middle of a scene and the need to have a minimum word count to meet. Bleh. So I would need to go around smoothing things out BIG time. In addition, because I am writting so fast, there are certain scenes that need more time spent with them, and quite frankly they just didn't get enough atension. For example, assuming the book ends at 50k words then I have literally spent half the book building up the introduction of this charecter. I know that whatever the hell it is I wrote isn't good enough. The idea behind her introduction is to make her seem like a let down and to make you question the main charecter's sanity even more than you have been. But I think I got a little bit to carried away with the let down part. I am about to unleash her in her full glory...tonight actually so I am pretty excited.

Also I tend to repete myself a lot. I don't mean to. What I mean to do is to advance the theme I am trying to in an interesting or clever way. Instead I end up repeating myself. This is ever so slightly embarassing. However, it is also stuff like this that causes me to not finish anything. I get so wrapped up in things I tend to forget to work on them. So far I am really happy that I am participating in NaNo. I am learning a lot of stuff about myself, and it is almost thrilling to watch myself set a goal, and now I am meeting it. All by myself with no real outside encouragement. Hell I haven't even updated my Nano profile and I don't know a single other person who is actually doing it.

Fuck most people haven't even askes what the book is about.

Not the point though. The point is that I am doing it and I am happy!

Soon I am going to get started on the post modern pornography project, or the ppp for short. I think I am going to end up just ordering a copy of ecrits in the mail because it is just something I know I am going to end up needing time and time again. I don't want to use Lacan, every time I use Lacan I develop a rash in my nether regions and a profound sense of guilt every time I use a metaphore. OH FUCK a lacnian reading of furries? That would be BAD ASS! Post modern fetish project coming your way this summer. Or something like that.

I'd be using this. Man that would be cool.

Anyway, the ppp is going to only be half finnished for awhile. Mostly because Sasha's current situation doesn't allow for long periods of sustained writting, and I am not there to "encourage" her to get to work. Still I am going to do my part. I've decided that for my primary texts I am going to use some Jenna Jameson pornos. I'm doing this for three reasons, 1) She is as close to mainstream as a porn star can get, 2) She is in depressingly vanilla pornos, 3) I think she is really funny looking. Most scholarly work I've read that looks at pornography fails to anchor any of its arguments in acutual specific porno movies. This makes sense of course because the vast majority of pornography is interchangable. Still you need a way to achor arguments. By using Jenna, the everywoman of pornography to talk about pornography I hope to sort of level the coversation out and to get some actual real work done with how pornography functions in regards to its viewer.

I also maintain the right to abandon this line of inquery and go hunt down really cool fetish porn. But whatever.

Hey I own an Ink pad I remeber what that was for. I should reactivate that project.

After that I'll be turning my atensions elsewhere. I'm not forgetting about that. Shroddinger's Rapist indeed. Grow. Up.

Meh. Oh hey so tomarrow I am demoing Arcane Legions to a vast majority of my friends. I wish I had some gaming terrian I could use. I could go and buy some but that is really fucking expensive. I think what I am going to end up doing is using deck boxes, and card boxes to represent ruined buildings until I can actually get some built. I also need a tape measure, can't forget that.

I've been wanting to play a mass combat minature game since...fuck I dunno since middle school which is where I first heard of warhammer. The thing about warhammer and its future counter part is that they are both increadbly average games that just aren't very fun. This game seems really neat though, it looks really easy to pick up. The price is right, I've just about assemebled two entire armies for the same price as this:

Granted yeah that thing is cool enough for me to want a tatoo of it. But it is just one part of a much much larger army. So I could get two entire armies for another game, or that. Hrm. So hopefully other people will get into it. There is tons of variety with troop selection and the types of armies you can field which is really important to me. So despite the fact that there are only three factions you can have three people playing the same faction but end up with three very diffrent armies.

Also they don't really do blind buying which is AWESOME.

Aright enough on Arcane Legions I really want to do a blog post on it all by itself after I've played a couple of games with people. I want to do a comparison which shows how this game does a lot of things right in comparison to other companies who end up doing things increadbly wrong.

I'm pretty excited. I also need to go to work. Well fine. Tonight is an exciting part of the story! I am thinking I'm going to end up devoting two nights to it cause it is really important. I'm not so sure. Just about the whole cast is getting brought out and that's going to be neat. Kay late late.

Post werk update! This thing that's bothering me, I don't feel like explaining what it is right now. It totally excists though. I am starting to think that it might be some fancy new coping method for dealing with the holidays. I hate the holiday season, I really fucking do. I always have hated it and I pretty much always will. So this might be a way of dealing with it that isn't depression. If it is that would be AWESOME! We'll see how it goes when the holidays actually get here, and if the problem still percists after they are gone.

The less time I spend uncontrollabley depressed the fucking better. I can't stand that shit and it is such a stupid waste of my valuable time.

Okay that is all I wanted to say really. Carry on.

Filling the Sausage

That reminds how much I love the musical Le Misrables. It also reminds me that some day, hopefully sooner than later I want to preform a lap dance to Music of the Night. It will involve a blind fold and I think I it would be supremely excellent.

In other news baby laptop can't run Civ4, /sad panda. I kinda knew it couldn't well ahead of time but I couldn't remember if civ 4 required a graphics card or not. Still it will run Alpha Centuri and when it is all said and done that is a better game anyway.

This is going to be a post where I signifigantly geek out. OH Tonight I should post my total novel word count on Twitter, then keep up with things like that because it is fun and it is something I am doing and blah blah blah. Its sad because I am not very happy with it at the moment. I mean it is alright. But I am waaaaaay out of practice writing fiction and it shows. I'm also meandering WAY to much with the story. I like books that meander though so everyone else can go fuck themselves. On friday which is my first and only day off this week I plan on going back and plumping out a few scenes. This isn't editing them so much as it is adding stuff to them to make them more relavent. Also I need to add a few things to variouse scenes to make them match up with what I have planned later, and what I want to write in the first Livejournal entry tonight.

A new game. I want a new game. Here is the thing. I LOVE Arkham horror. I modereratly love Munchkin, and Illuminati is something I love so hard that all I have left is a moderate love for Munchkin. The problem is that while switching back and forth between Arkham and Illuminati is great I fear burnout. So I've been looking for a new game to play, it needs to be 4+ players and it needs to be neat, optimumly it also needs a quick pickup breakdown time. Red Dragon Inn Fits this bill nicely and it can be easily brief cased up, however it is pretty expensive when you consider the actual components you are getting. There is also VTES, which is a collectable card game. However, now that I found a site that sells really cheap singles I should be able to get 6-8 decks up and running quickly and easily. This will be great because the game is best played with 5 people and now I'll have a good combonation of variety and usability. What really frusterates me is that there are a bunch of card games coming out that are close to what I am trying to do with Vampire but they are all resolutly two players which is just plain annoying.

Lastly I want to get into Warmatchine. I love the minatures, the setting is okay, and the rules seem fun. The problem? In the first edition of the rules they had all these really cool Mech things which they called Warjacks because calling them mechs violates copywrite laws. The game promises that it would be full of epic jack on jack combat, and lets be clear the jack on jack combat is pretty epic. The problem? The most effective armies don't really use Jacks. So fuck that game. Times are changing though. Plastic kits are coming out, and the rules are shifting more twords jack on jack combat again. So WIN! I'll take another look into the game for sure. If not I think I will settle for just making an investment in Monsterpocalypse.

Aftershocks

Woo so last night I had a pretty nasty migraine. Light started to suck, and all sorts of other things. Despite all of this I still managed to finnish my book "The Man Who Was Thursday". It was a neat book. I liked it. The thing about it though is that it was very victorian. Very very Victorian. Part of the way in I predicted the way the book was going to go. I knew that all the members of the secret anarchist council were going to be members of the philosphical police. I also knew that the man who recruited them was also the sinister head of the anarchist council Sunday, and lastly I also knew that when the ending of the book happened, depite all my accurate predictions, I would not understand Sunday's motives nor would I understand the imagry used at the end of the book.

I was right about that too. See that is the thing about victorian literature. Often times I find it to be dull and shockingly predicatable, even to the point where I can predict when it won't be dull or predicatble. However, it also can provide the most curiouse of thought puzzles to try and work through. I am happy with the book.

Now that I've slept on it, and meditated just a little bit I think I have a better handle on why the ending happened in the way that it did. I kind of want to write about it but at the moment my head is to filled with cotton to really get a handle on anything more complex than my desire to talk about stuff. Right now it feels like I am trying to jump start my brain with a nearly dead battery.

OH! So a lot of people have been talking about Glenn Beck. I don't have cable, and I don't watch Fox even if I did, so I have missed out on the Beckster for the most part. Last night though I decided that it was time I gave him a looksee. So I asked old Uncle youtube to show me a story. The first thing I saw by Beck was him talking about how the Fed was printing tons and tons of money with nothing to back it up, which he predicted would kill our dollar. It was an older video and he was right, the value of our dollar is going down, the rest of the world is looking to come up with a new standardized currency, and well he was right. Not only was he right but the clip I was watching was him going back and explaining why this was such a problem. See the day before he put up a chart, without really explaining it very well and when this came to his attension he went back and explained it better so his viewership would have a clearer understanding of the problem. Twords the end of the clip he did some gimmicky pot shots at some politicians but all in all it was a very sober affair.

Then I watched the start of another clip, Becky went out and found all these islamic extreamists groups hate propaganda and put it together in an hour long segment which I didn't watch. Before the segment started though he came out and said, "I am not a reporter. I am a conservitive, everything I am presenting to you is through this conservative prisim, I believe in order to have balanced broadcasting practices that you need to get highly opinionated viewpoints along with straight facts to get a full picture, I work in the media and I hadn't seen these clips until now. These are things that are not being shown to you". Neat. He came out stated his purpose and then showed off some hate speach.

Then I found some more modern clips. Bill Oriley calling Glenn Beck crazy being one of them, and the other is from Beck's radio broadcast where he starts making histerical shrieking sounds.

In all cases I looked at the youtube comments. Actually first I want to do the phone call video. The thing is that the person making the call is an idiot. See Beck was being rude and condensending to her, but you know what? She deserved it! Well not the shrieking part that was insane. But she was a stupid woman who clearly had little to know idea what she was talking about. Her whole argument was that in England you walk into a doctor's office and sign a form and that is all you need to do and that is the way it should be. Which is cool but it addresses exactly ZERO of the problems surrounding the health care debate.

Now I will do the Youtube comments. In every youtube comment ever

Dandylions in the Wind

There that is much prettyer than box of cockroaches. But I have a lot of topics and not a lot of time.

1) NASA wants to move the earth. The sheer unbridled arrogance of these people just blows my freaking mind. I mean really? REALLY? You can't even fucking land something on Mars but directing a 100 meter object close to us but not close enough to hit us so that our orbit becomes altered is "basic rocket science" Go to hell. http://www.impactlab.com/2009/08/11/nasa-wants-to-move-the-earth/

2) On that same page they have a sidebar survey. Apparently the majority of that site's readers think we have the best healthcare plan in the world. Now if that isn't a case of propaganda backfiring I don't know what is. I really need to find this lecture video that does an amazing job at showing you how shit our healthcare is.

3) Time has this page full of quotes, " People wanted bigger weddings, nerwer carriages...They were buying things they didn't need" -Mervin Lehman an Amish father of 4, on why his commuinty in Indiana is struggling finacially. Man we can all take a lesson away from that.

4) I got to test out some of my theories on Marxism last night, you know the ones I just wrote a couple of posts ago. They help up well! I am excited.

5) My OC/politics thing did not do as well as I would of liked. I really need to be more agressive against media dogmaists. The experience did leave me much wiser and I am now better prepared to take on media dogmaists next time.

6) Really REALLY at the end of the day, people give the media way to much fucking credit.

7) Atlantica Online is really really fun! And I didn't hit a lick of grind until lvl 70 which is pretty god damned impressive considering the cap is 120. Although according to the story I am 6 levels behind where I should be, but I am a badass so things matter less to me.

8) I should write about the healthcare reform. I does directly effect me after all. I just don't have enough of an opinion about it either way. It is one of those things I am for and against it at the same time and the problem is far more complex than anyone is giving it credit.

9) More interesting to me is what is going on with the ecconomic stimuls but hey no one seems to want to talk about it. Fuckers.

10) I need to subscribe to harpers, the beliver and McSweenies. That is what I am doing with my christmas bonus.

11) Amanda Palmer is a worthy addtion to twitter readings.

12) I should write about twitter and my complex feelings twords it.

13) I should also get started on a SLA Industries campain because I got a feeling I am going to be running one fairly soon

14) I think I might be getting depressed. I've had to struggle harder and harder to keep my creative momentum going and when I opened this blog up my first thought was "Why up date no one reads it including you" THAT'S NOT COOL. Fuck I dun't wanna be depressed I was having fun.

15) I need to see if anything is going on with the vomit gore trilogy

16) I realized last night why I get so excited when I talk about Slaughtered Vomit Dolls and its sequel regorgitated sacrifice. It is because they are something new. It is something that I have never seen before. I am not jaded. Not by a long stretch. At the same time though Slaughtered Vomit dolls breaks new ground not just because of the vomit but also because it carves a new path into the genera of cerebral horror.

17) Watch Taxidermia. Shut up and do it. District 9 isn't that good.

18) I judge books by their covers and you know what? It works.

19) You know I realized something. I don't have a group of people. There is nowhere I can go where I will feel fundamentally welcomed. Goth's have goth clubs, gamers have game stores, and people have diffrent variety's of bars. I am...not alone. That just sounds dramatic and stupid. But I seem to get along the best where everyone in the group all looks diffrent.

20) One comment about Sasha in the reffrence to the above and I will find and kill you.

I wonder which kidney would win

Or better yet if my Kidneys and my lungs were to have a fight which ones would win? Lungs are kinda a pussy organ so I am not so sure. I should of asked the doctor when I saw him. Yeah that was fun, no actually it wasn't that bad. See I've grown up without health insurance. My mom, my mom would always take me to fairly nice walk in clinics that would usually be located somewhere on the far side of the moon but they were clean, well lit, and the doctors non scary. My dad would take me to the most cracked out place he could find, including the emrgency room in one scary god damned hospital. Yeah even the doctor was confused as to why we just didn't go to a normal walk in clinic once. Who knows. Anyway I expected to wait. Wait for a good long time with no food or drink. I brought with me this laptop, a fully charged DS, 5 back issues of time, a pad, 7 zillion pens, and a will to heal. I was ready to dig in and be there for the long haul. SO off I went to the scary ghetto ass walk in clinic near my house. The one with the 40 dollar a visit sign out front and folding chairs in the lobby. As I walked in some sort of shit seems to have been caught abusing a fan again and a slightly paniced young man told me they were closed.

I wasn't sick I just had an ear wax blockage in my head which has to be one of the most uncomfortable things I've ever experienced. I wanted to kill that young man. He also called me bro. People who call me bro require me to make a physical effort to not crush their windpipe. I hate that kid. Oh well, so I had to go to the Baptist Medical Center. It is basicly a walk in attached to one giant ass hospital. It is the hospital that ambulances drive past to go to the better one. And yet...yet.... from my enterence into the lobby to my final exit from the lobby I wasn't there for longer than an hour and a half. Holy fuck. The longest time spent on anything was my actual procedure. I didn't even get to finnish reading one of my Time magazines which is increadble to me. Now my ears are unclogged, my sinuses have cleared up, all the pain and discomfort is gone and I no longer want to kill every living thing in a 5 mile radius.

Yeah it was bad. See here is the thing, I get sexual arousal from domination and pain. I am a migraine sufferer...wait wait. See that spelling of migrain? Yeah well it is retarded we are doing it my way from now on. Anyway, yeah migrains there have been times where I have spent hours in the bath room clutching a toilet bowl vomiting in the dark. Ever vomit in the dark? It is one of the most depressing experiences ever. Bt I couldn't have the light on because it hurt way to much. I've done this. Yet... I would rather have a migrain that all that ear bullshit. Migrains are big, dramatic and fucking spectacular let me tell you. However, they are also finite. When a migrain hits you know what the next 12-24 hours will entail. Pain! Then it will be over. Sometimes you'll need the next day to recover, especially if there is vomiting involved, sometimes you can shake off the after effects like a bad memory, either way the pain goes away and you are free to wander off.

This ear shit? Nope. It will stick around forever Until you deal with it. You could swallow sinus medication, take advil until you are shitting your stomach lining, and anything else you can think of and it will still be there. It will never go away and it will only get worse. Not only that but if I moved around to much I got fucking nauseous, I hate nausea it drives me insane. It is a really cool word though. Nausea look at it, I love the letters s-e-a, they flow so well together. Hrm. Yeah though, I am glad that is over with. I have not been having a fun time of it and I am glad my problems are solved.

Oh yeah I have an ear infection too. BULLSHIT! HOwever, I got free medicine to get rid of it which is pretty bad ass because I am poor.

Oh and I hate the irish but that is a diffrent story entirely.

Hopping from Puddle to Puddle

Taking a little break from Marx I decided to do some generalized talking about stuff.

1) I downloaded and played Spore. That game really is a pile of ass. As a toy it gains top marks. It is fun to screw with creature bits, desighn buildings, mess with junk...but the actual game itself is not fun. Well okay the cell phase is a great deal of fun. When something 80 billion times your size comes chasing after you it is increadble fun to turn, fight, and win. I did win too. My first battle was epic as I circled the giant monstrosity for mintus dodging nimbly between the spikes that covered its body, nibbling away at its health until it died. Then... I got absolutly no reward. Self satisfaction was almost enough though.

Then in the next phase we had tribes and such and we wandered around gathering food and kill those who fools who happened to be next to us. Now see this is where I thought it would get exciting. See if I kill 5 of thier dudes they go extinct and I naturally thought the same rules would apply to me. They didn't. Everyone left me alone and I was free to rip the heads off of whoever I wanted to with impunity. THe rest of the game left me feeling similarly blah.

I think it is because I've been spoiled. Some of my favorite games are X-Com UFO Defesne, Dwarf Fortress, Alpha Centuri, and I really want to take a couple of days off from work to learn to play Europa Universals III, or maybe the rome version I can't tell. Either way I am excited about those games. The point being is that when I sit down to the computer to play a game I have this weird expectation that things are going to be complex and exciting and when they aren't I am annoyed. The thing is that Spore could of been everthing I asked of it. 90% of the games development is graphics, so they could of spent a couple of extra months or even a year putting an actual game behind their little toy but they didn't. That is sad.

2) Bye bye hours. So my hours have been cut for no real reason other than to piss me off. I feel like I should be pissed off because they are my hours and I should both fight and die for them, and yet I just don't feel like it. I am enjoying the extra time I now have on a weekly basis and I have to say that I am much less tired and in a much better mood over all. It also makes my weeks fly by faster. So I am generally happy with this new situation.

I do make signifigantly less money now though. SAD! SO I have to seriously cut down on my cash expendatures, which is something I wanted to do anyway. It will be easyer now though because I work less. Yeah I know for most people the opposite is true, but I tend to justify most expendatures with the justification that I work a lot and I need these things to enjoy...gah lunch is over